Comments on Decompressing Faith: Admitting Defeat

I don't understand the whole thyroid thing too, wi...

2009-05-14T17:10:00.000-07:00

I don't understand the whole thyroid thing too, with all those different T3 and T4 things that seem to sort of contradict or counteract each other. Or something. I have been confused fro years about this whole area.

I hope you get it sorted Erin. I agree about society telling us we can be in control of everything. Because boy, doesn't it feel absolutely TERRIFYING to think that we're not? And yet that seems exactly what we need to do to get peace and wisdom and all that good stuff. I struggle every single day with this and I think I probably always will :(

Thats a depressing thought to leave you on.

That's a really good thought, Aphra, but I'm afrai...

2009-05-14T13:53:00.000-07:00

That's a really good thought, Aphra, but I'm afraid I'm not on anything. I wish it was the case!

Last night I happened to be talking with some ladi...

2009-05-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

Last night I happened to be talking with some ladies and they said that they couldn't lose weight because of the medication they were on. I don't know if you are on any medication now- but if you are- that might be a thought?

Barbara - I do hope if it is my thyroid it's clear...

2009-05-14T07:30:00.000-07:00

Barbara - I do hope if it is my thyroid it's clear cut and not tricky...because I know they can be. I will definitely take medication at this point, because whatever I'm able to do hasn't been working. I hate the idea of being on something forever, but I don't hate that as much as what I'm dealing with now.

It's true that we do have to realize when things are beyond our control...I think that is where God comes in...not necessarily to fix those things, but to give us the peace we need to let go.

Donna - In many ways this is all my own fault...I ...

2009-05-14T07:28:00.000-07:00

Donna - In many ways this is all my own fault...I was told years ago that I was at risk for diabetes, and I didn't do what I should have done to prevent it. I think that dictates my desire to do whatever I can to resolve things before going to the Dr. But then sometimes it has to be done.

Yes, do get a new battery, and yes, we should get together and rant very soon!

Thanks Aphra.

2009-05-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

Thanks Aphra.

Thanks Hap. Yes, it does matter...but it's hard to...

2009-05-14T07:24:00.000-07:00

Thanks Hap. Yes, it does matter...but it's hard to see it that way sometimes. I'll look you up one of these days soon, we need to catch up!

Thanks for the hug, PW. I appreciate the thoughts ...

2009-05-14T07:22:00.001-07:00

Thanks for the hug, PW. I appreciate the thoughts and prayers.

Sue, Control is a hard thing. I think that society...

2009-05-14T07:22:00.000-07:00

Sue, Control is a hard thing. I think that society makes us think we are able to have a hand in controlling everything that happens to us, so that when we can't have control, we feel we have failed.

I will get the results in a week, and yes, I do intend to take them home and do research. I have learned through my experiences with my grandparents and parents and in-laws that doctors are often really making "best guesses" and are often wrong.

i'm with Barbara, ticked off is the reasonable res...

2009-05-14T05:39:00.000-07:00

i'm with Barbara, ticked off is the reasonable response at this point. you're doing the right thing by seeing the dr. hang in there. there's always an answer.

praying for you. hang in there. more and more I'...

2009-05-13T18:18:00.000-07:00

praying for you. hang in there. more and more I'm coming to the conclusion that very few "results" are really under our control, but that doesn't mean that the thing isn't worth doing for its own sake . . .

Well personall if I was you, I'd be ticked off. A...

2009-05-13T16:11:00.000-07:00

Well personall if I was you, I'd be ticked off. All the effort of doing all the right things should equal the right results. Dang, I hate it when it doesn't work that way. If the thyroid is the culprit will you take meds? My thyroid is a tricky little devil because my T3 and T4 levels are messed up so I take something for both. I really don't understand it.

I hope that you find a solution.

I loved the reminder of "But we all know that while a broad perspective is noble, a narrow one is reality." That is so true, and it hurts when we have a concern that someone minimizes because it "could be so much worse".

Also loved your last paragraph and am applying it to my situations. I love you. I have a feeling that all your hard work WILL pay off in better BS levels and some lb droppage.

Whew...that has got to be frustrating...I do hope ...

2009-05-13T14:11:00.000-07:00

Whew...that has got to be frustrating...I do hope you get a firm answer from your doctor...the battery went dead in my sugar meter and I need to get it replaced as my sugar had been a bit high which is very weird for me. I am afraid my pancreas is totally crapping out on me but last week my Dr said I was healthy...his reasoning, it had been a year since I had been in for a visit!! He didn't test anything...we should get together and rant soon!! :)

I'm sorry that this is so frustrating for you. I h...

2009-05-13T09:38:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry that this is so frustrating for you. I hope you find out if there is something wrong.

Hey, Erin - thanks for sharing about this; I will ...

2009-05-13T06:25:00.000-07:00

Hey, Erin - thanks for sharing about this; I will be praying for you! There's nothing like health issues to put us in touch with our control issues, eh? I've got a few of my own to sludge through. :P But it *does* matter - in the grand scheme of things, this *is* a big deal because it matters to *you* and God cares about it greatly. He is with you, Erin. Cry away, if you need to. He gets it.

But I think it's admirable that you did all you could - because now you can say that, and it *is* up to Him. Praying that the doctors will have wisdom and insight, and *options* for a solution.

If you need to/want to chat, you generally know "where" to find me. ;)

love you,
Hap

So sorry to hear of your medical struggles. I have...

2009-05-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

So sorry to hear of your medical struggles. I have no particular advice, but am sending you online (((HUGS)))) and prayed for you.

It amazes me continually how I insist on remaining...

2009-05-13T02:20:00.000-07:00

It amazes me continually how I insist on remaining in control. Even when I have experienced firsthand what it is to give up control and paradoxically to be more in control than ever before ... ooooh, back it sneaks again. It drives me bonkers and I can totally relate to how you feel.

Make sure you get your blood results to take home also with you so you can continue researching yourself (yes, the internet can be dangerous. It can also be an indication that you need second opinions. Doctors are not gods and their institution is rather compromised).