Binary Life

A friend pointed out that I haven't been posting much lately. Not like normal, anyhow. For almost 3 years I averaged one post per day. In October, I had a total of 9. In September I had 12. So yes, something has changed. So I was thinking about this, wondering what has changed. I have no intention of quitting, but it seems I have slowed down. One big factor is stress, or should I say, just life.

As most of you know, my mom in law has been very ill for months now. If you aren't familiar with the story, I wrote about it here and here and here.

She is improving by leaps and bounds, but she is still a very long way from being well. She is speaking in sentences more often than not, and much more relational and communicative. But also, because she is more aware, she is quite sad, I might even say depressed, as she realizes more and more how much time has passed and the condition she is in now. I have told her that feeling and expressing emotion is a very good thing, because it means her brain is processing feelings now. I'm very glad for that, it is progress. But this doesn't make it any easier for her to cope with being bedridden and watching TV all day because she still cannot read or do other things to entertain herself. Not to mention over 5 months have passed and she is still months away from going home, at least. She is realizing all she has missed and this is extremely difficult for her.

My parents also moved at the beginning of October, and while they have come a long way in 4 weeks, they are still not settled. This isn't the stressor it was for me a month ago, but I still am dealing with the emotional upheaval it has created for them and the way my life and history has changed because of it. Stories about that can be found here and here.

We are working on our kitchen. It's been about 3 (4?) weeks now and I know that isn't long. I'm doing well with having my kitchen in my living room, but it still challenges our daily routine and creates a bit of chaos and makes it more difficult to focus.

Maybe, as well, I have decompressed my faith enough that there isn't much left for me to hash out. Yet, I'm not really involved in any real life community so there isn't that to write about, either. Mostly I'm looking to support people who need to know that the journey out of church, organized religion and cookie cutter beliefs is an okay thing. So maybe I have bored myself listening to myself talk, and am more interested in what others are going through.

Otherwise, my life is pretty mundane these days...kids and family and bills and all...voluntering in the school, and keeping life togther. I just haven't had anything interesting to say, not often anyhow. I'm sure things will pick up again here eventually, so don't delete me from your reader just yet. I will never run out of things to say.

So an interesting question was posed recently on another blog, and I want to bring it up here for those who haven't been involved in the conversation yet. I know it has been asked before, but it usually leads to some interesting discussion. Learning to be less dualistic in life (sacred/secular) also carries over into this format (tangible life/online life).

Are you the same person online as you are in real life?